Mark had a son.
Ruth had known for two years.
And I had been the last person in the room to find out — the person who had loved him most completely, who had asked no questions, who had trusted him when he said *please trust me.*
I picked up the photograph.
The stain on Daniel’s collar was shaped a little like a star.
I thought about a five-year-old boy in a house somewhere in this city, with a mother who was sick and a father who was g*ne, and no one who knew his face the way I now knew it.
I thought about my daughter, who would be here in four weeks.
I put the photograph in the letter, folded them together, and set them on the counter by the door where I kept things I needed to deal with and couldn’t yet.
Then I went upstairs, lay down on top of the covers still in my coat, and stared at the ceiling until it was dark.
