And for a long time I thought surviving in that kind of place proved strength.
Now I know it mostly proves endurance.
Real strength is different.
Real strength is pulling over.
Real strength is risking inconvenience.
Real strength is refusing to let the world flatten your instincts into something smaller and colder just because coldness looks efficient from behind a desk.
About two years after that morning, I was driving to work again along that same road by the old strip mall.
The city had widened part of it.
New paint on the shoulder.
Fresh paving.
A coffee stand where an empty lot used to be.
She looked stronger now than she had in the office lobby months earlier.
Healthier.
Still elegant, but softer somehow.
Life after a close call does that to people.
“I think about that morning a lot,” she said.
“So do I.”
She looked at me sideways.
